Sunday, April 16, 2006
i finally see the whole picture. i was so foolish but i won`t be anymore. what`s all that sweet-talk for then??? as if i never tell him beforehand that i am who i am. i tried to curb my temper but this was what i get in return? i was thought of like a bitch, a slut. was i not accomodating enough then?? who brought you dinner when you said you want to save more money and refused to eat more? who was worried sick for your health from dusk to dawn, day to night? who was there when you needed someone so badly? who was there when times were hard and told you that it`s alright, we try we survive, and don`t mind suffering with you when you said i will? who was willing to hold on to stay afloat together with you when you were almost sinking? who was there when you needed a hug to make you forget your blues? who told you that she don`t mind not meeting up when she saw you so tired and stressed? who gave u a chance when you requested for one?
i admit i was harsh at times. i was super upset and fine, that does`nt concern you. you just don`t want to talk to me anymore, fine, i will shut myself up away from you. all the while i was blaming myself and now, i finally see the whole picture. why do you want to say the harsh words when i really did nothing wrong after we parted. i was so silly. i trusted you that i gave you my whole heart and almost whole life, but you overturned every fact that fits reality? i won`t care about his feelings anymore... i was a shitty gf. i was lousy. i was too forceful on him. i was wrong. i was wrong about him. i was wrong to make him think it`s his fault. i was wrong to say every loving word to him. i was wrong to live... hopefully nobody will blame me anymore when i`m gone... SORRY!!!
2:19 AM
i finally see the whole picture. i was so foolish but i won`t be anymore. what`s all that sweet-talk for then??? as if i never tell him beforehand that i am who i am. i tried to curb my temper but this was what i get in return? i was thought of like a bitch, a slut. was i not accomodating enough then?? who brought you dinner when you said you want to save more money and refused to eat more? who was worried sick for your health from dusk to dawn, day to night? who was there when you needed someone so badly? who was there when times were hard and told you that it`s alright, we try we survive, and don`t mind suffering with you when you said i will? who was willing to hold on to stay afloat together with you when you were almost sinking? who was there when you needed a hug to make you forget your blues? who told you that she don`t mind not meeting up when she saw you so tired and stressed? who gave u a chance when you requested for one?
i admit i was harsh at times. i was super upset and fine, that does`nt concern you. you just don`t want to talk to me anymore, fine, i will shut myself up away from you. all the while i was blaming myself and now, i finally see the whole picture. why do you want to say the harsh words when i really did nothing wrong after we parted. i was so silly. i trusted you that i gave you my whole heart and almost whole life, but you overturned every fact that fits reality? i won`t care about his feelings anymore... i was a shitty gf. i was lousy. i was too forceful on him. i was wrong. i was wrong about him. i was wrong to make him think it`s his fault. i was wrong to say every loving word to him. i was wrong to live... hopefully nobody will blame me anymore when i`m gone... SORRY!!!
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 2:19 AM
